Just a little faith is all it takes.....

 At times we get so caught up in the needs of others and focusing on fixing the issue to where we will run ourselves dry. I recall a time I thought I had to save everyone or find a resolution. I was literally losing sleep and draining myself mentally, physically even financially. In some situations the help was one sided and I overlooked many things because of love. I have now learned everything does not need fixing, at least by me anyway. I now pray more than I ever have because I know where my strength and help comes from.  From family to co-workers and relationships as well it seemed I attract broken people. I now understand its part of my purpose but I have to take things easy and handle it all differently. Nothing is wrong with loving or helping but you have to take it easy and tread lightly. In all situations do whats best for you and don't overload yourself. Be sure to keep calm and communicate openly. If the person you are speaking with is hostile, upset or negative an...

  I dare not ask why…. So much pain, hurt and confusion inside Everything seemed so perfect yet I complained Little did I know it was all in vain I had everything I needed yet failed to be grateful How could I be so naïve and unappreciative when I had a plate full All I needed and more was right in front of me He wanted my attention and he got it now I must take the lead Who knew it would be a fire that broke me Yet I am stronger and wiser now & your callings ill take heed I must live my purpose   and Im ready to start Now I have a headstart and I must do my part Through floods and fire my faith remains strong All it takes is a mustard seed and it will carry you along Have faith and believe our father will not lead you astray Lean on him and not your understanding, allow him to lead the way!  

 As i sit and binge watch manifest it reminds me how humble i am and how strong my faith is. What does manifest mean to you? What are some ideas that come to mind? For me it simply means to take control and watch the outcome. The saying you reap what you sow is factual. No one ever said the road would be easy and i know you've heard that also. Sometimes its hard to explain or actually put in words but I have learned when it comes to mind start writing. You would think my childhood, the natural disasters I've endured and battled in many ways or losing a child and both parents at what i consider a young age would have broke me. BUT GOD....that's all i can say! His favorable grace and mercy is indescribable and I'm so grateful that he chose me to walk this journey. It is said he gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers and lord knows it took him along with the angels i know watching over me to keep me sane, praying and striving. I am learning my full purpose but...

 Sometimes people go through things where it leaves you confused or hurt but you are unsure of where to turn. Being only thirty one and both parents deceased and having lost a child it the most tragic way i find myself alone and just thinking alot. I thank God for the strength and understanding that he has given me also for his grace and mercy. Most that know me are unaware that I was diagnosed with PTSD and severe depression. I was in denial for so long but am glad I am to a point now where I am aware and growing while healing daily.  It is so much easier to rest and keep focused during this pandemic because I have so much time to think and plan. I want to let everyone out there know that there is a friend in JESUS! Also if you ever want to reach out to talk or vent or have questions, anything at all. Please reach out! I am thankful that i never had thoughts of hurting myself or others but some take things differently. The first step in healing is recognizing and to acknowled...