Just a little faith is all it takes.....

 Let me start off by saying I have never ran to go open a child support case for many reasons. The top reason is due to me feeling disgusted with how people misuse the purpose of it. My opinion is most women open the cs cases for bitter reasons. Regardless of why your relationship with the guy ended, or how he was the worst boyfriend/husband, don't take away from him being a father! What I am speaking to is not always the case but i see it alot and it upsets me so much. I created my podcast to share my story, bring more awareness to mental health and also in hopes of uniting many individuals and having great conversations. However i also want to be able to address many elephants in the room and that topic being one. Most importantly and I will forever say until i see change; women need to take more accountability for thier actions. I will continue to share my thoughts and feelings with you'll and i appreciate you taking the time to read my blog :) Be blessed and remember LOVE/F...

 These days and times can be difficult and depressing but i know my angels are watching over me. I also know where my strength comes from therefore i can't be defeated. I wanted to blog and encourage you to stay strong and when times get tough simply look back at what you have made it through. I honestly feel after everything i have endured that NOTHING can break me. I know at times its not so easy to think of the positive but thats a good practice. No matter what you face in life try to focus on the positive and the outcome. Focus on what needs to happen to fix the issue or matter at hand and sometimes you have to just be humble and still. We worry so much about accomplishing certain tasks or trying to figure things out but fact is its already worked out. LET GO & LET GOD!!!!!! (smooches) XOXO & Blessings :) 

 ....before I begin I will admit this is something I am still working on. The problem I am running into is knowing when to submit. I know and feel in my heart God is still working on my husband but in the meantime "When do you submit.....?" My thought on that is if a man comes along and fills the shoes of a man and shows that he is caring, compassionate, respectful, committed, faithful, loyal, driven and has so many other characteristics of someone I would love in my life I may just do so. In these days and times there are more excuses than resolutions. Also more people with different intentions who are not honest. One thing I will not allow is baggage from a previous relationship. By that I am referring to insecurities and signs of jealousy, etc. I want someone just as dedicated and caring as I am. My motto through life is " No excuses, ONLY solutions! I refuse to use what I have been through as an excuse to try and get away with what I know is not righteous. With that ...

 At times we get so caught up in the needs of others and focusing on fixing the issue to where we will run ourselves dry. I recall a time I thought I had to save everyone or find a resolution. I was literally losing sleep and draining myself mentally, physically even financially. In some situations the help was one sided and I overlooked many things because of love. I have now learned everything does not need fixing, at least by me anyway. I now pray more than I ever have because I know where my strength and help comes from.  From family to co-workers and relationships as well it seemed I attract broken people. I now understand its part of my purpose but I have to take things easy and handle it all differently. Nothing is wrong with loving or helping but you have to take it easy and tread lightly. In all situations do whats best for you and don't overload yourself. Be sure to keep calm and communicate openly. If the person you are speaking with is hostile, upset or negative an...

  I dare not ask why…. So much pain, hurt and confusion inside Everything seemed so perfect yet I complained Little did I know it was all in vain I had everything I needed yet failed to be grateful How could I be so naïve and unappreciative when I had a plate full All I needed and more was right in front of me He wanted my attention and he got it now I must take the lead Who knew it would be a fire that broke me Yet I am stronger and wiser now & your callings ill take heed I must live my purpose   and Im ready to start Now I have a headstart and I must do my part Through floods and fire my faith remains strong All it takes is a mustard seed and it will carry you along Have faith and believe our father will not lead you astray Lean on him and not your understanding, allow him to lead the way!  

 As i sit and binge watch manifest it reminds me how humble i am and how strong my faith is. What does manifest mean to you? What are some ideas that come to mind? For me it simply means to take control and watch the outcome. The saying you reap what you sow is factual. No one ever said the road would be easy and i know you've heard that also. Sometimes its hard to explain or actually put in words but I have learned when it comes to mind start writing. You would think my childhood, the natural disasters I've endured and battled in many ways or losing a child and both parents at what i consider a young age would have broke me. BUT GOD....that's all i can say! His favorable grace and mercy is indescribable and I'm so grateful that he chose me to walk this journey. It is said he gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers and lord knows it took him along with the angels i know watching over me to keep me sane, praying and striving. I am learning my full purpose but...

 Sometimes people go through things where it leaves you confused or hurt but you are unsure of where to turn. Being only thirty one and both parents deceased and having lost a child it the most tragic way i find myself alone and just thinking alot. I thank God for the strength and understanding that he has given me also for his grace and mercy. Most that know me are unaware that I was diagnosed with PTSD and severe depression. I was in denial for so long but am glad I am to a point now where I am aware and growing while healing daily.  It is so much easier to rest and keep focused during this pandemic because I have so much time to think and plan. I want to let everyone out there know that there is a friend in JESUS! Also if you ever want to reach out to talk or vent or have questions, anything at all. Please reach out! I am thankful that i never had thoughts of hurting myself or others but some take things differently. The first step in healing is recognizing and to acknowled...